finalleeeeh. it’s been a really really tired 3 months of guessing wondering analyzing thinking etc etc. kata taylor swift sih
“well maybe it’s me, and my blind optimism to blame”
“i look back and i (dont) regret how i ignored when they say run as fast as you can”
so, thank you. n_n
someday someone’s gonna take your place. one day i’ll forget about you~
you keep looking for the right answer, but the answer didnt just come out. it slapped you hard, right in the face. too fast, too early; you arent prepared for anything. you havent even experienced the magnificent taste of heaven. shouldnt you be thankful? many people that had been trapped on that ‘certain’ hole wished to be warned beforehand. because its damn hard, they said, to stand still, act like nothing happened [when they just did fall after flying too high]. and shouldnt you be more thankful that what you got is not just a warning. it is the right answer; the TRUTH. the truth slapped you right in the face and you just couldnt ignore it. it makes all sense in the whole world and you do admit that but it just hurts rea~lly bad. one sure thing you can do is accepting it. but you are basically a very stupid person so you try avoiding the acceptance part by finding another solution, or answer, that less hurt. what you dont know is you are just walking on a cycle path that leads you to nowhere but the truth itself by doing so. their advise is; stop looking for any-freaking-thing and get the hell out of that damn cycle path before you hurt yourself even more.
this whole trashy essay is a prove that i do know what im facing. im still not ready to stop facing ‘it’, though.
they think i dont know. well, i do.
you think i dont know. lol dont be ridiculous, of course i do :-)